rEaListIc Arts

2008

2007-10-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm... how should i start with... its been really long since i last blogged. If i wasnt wrong.. one year for straight i have not login into this account for long. Some nostalgic feeling... after reading my old postings. Look like i have grow up alot then i was few years back in secondary school. The time now is12.46am..... going to turn in to bed in a few minutes time. Coz i have a morning class at 8! Dammit. Maths lesson... i got much to say, but i am posting it this evening. Nites... i really got no idea how u become like this.. Argh... the feeling is terrible.

we belong together.

2006-05-31T10:36:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last blooged... i was too lazy to. Lols.

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2006-03-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

Its has been quite a while since i last blogged. haiyo... have spent most of the time at home, helpin out with house chores. Going back and fro to canberra pri fetchin my sis. gonna be a qualified babysitter soon. Any employers? Hahs..
Hmm... march is endin soon. And a new month april... beware! of being fool. hahs. April fool's day. Yst went to arrange my table... was gatherin all the presents i received together. First time in my life i receive so many present frm the same ppl. So glad to see tat. =) Hees.
A new 4th month will soon be neared... i've passed this full 3 months happier den any days in my previous history. Hope she feels the same way too.
School is reopening soon... but before tat, of course orientation comes first. hahs.. get to meet new friends again. New lecturers tooo.. hope everything will go fine.

17 years.

2006-03-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

hmm today is my birthday... after 16 years.. i had a proper celebration. I had someone to celebrate with me... sharin the joys and happiness. Hahas... so great! I had a wonderful day.... awesome! =)) receive a hand made present firstly... was soo touched... it was all handmade.... made with love and warmth. Soo... nice. really nice. We went to the beach as well... didnt expect the weather there to be cool... on the way... the weather was soo hot. but when we reached there... the clouds cooled the atmosphere. Lookin far at the wave... so comfortable with her being next to me. =)) I enjoyed the quietness there... wish tat the time can just stop there... hahs so unrealistic. but nice...
Hmm... den we went for dinner... she gave me a treat... a very hearty dinner. Was full and happy with that meal. time pass really fast... it was about time to head back home. hahs... my heart was light... nothing on my mind. Just happy with her next to me. Thks alot for all the present, meal, and time for me. Xie xie nii! Shall end here liaos... =))

xie xie ni d.d.l.p. i appreciated all tat u habe done for me. mwahs. lols

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2006-03-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday thepostin result was out... I got posted to NYP. Chemical and pharma tech course. Phew... thats was my first choice. Luckily i got in. I guessed alot of css student will be enroll into this institute.
Well school will be re opening soon... so excited about a new environment. I'm eager to start studyin again.

Time passed really fast... and 3 months have passed. Hmm... it was a great 3 months. Wahahs. i shall describe it as the season of love... Never ending. Receive lots of care and love. Hmm... another word for it will be happiness. Yesh...! tat is wad i have been receiving everyday. Guess u ppl realise i seldom post such things on my blog nowadays. But once in a blue moon... i shall whisper out my piece of mind into this small little space. why...? to let u know that i care, i love and of course i treasure -U
Along this journey, it wasnt easy going. Lots of problems were ahead of us. but we still solved it.

Hmm... shall write till here... i am getting slply.. Zzz. hahs.

j thinking bout u in every split milli seconds. j

2006-02-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

4e2 class gatherin... finally as a chair person... i did smthg for 4e2. Althought less den 20 ppl turn up... but it was a great gatherin. Everyone had fun. Hahs. Thks grace alot... for going. Thk you, my frend. hahs.. and stop ur shouting. Lols.. just kiddin. I was so damm glad tat jess went along too. hahs. so great! oh ya... thks for those comin for the bbq.
Jess, grace, jiacong, denise and me took a taxi home. Lols... 5 ppl in a taxi. At first was rejected by the many drivers.. but luckily we was accepted. Reach semb at bout 11pm. the night market was about to close. We bought 2 burgers and head to kopitiam. Though.. tired but was happy...

j: qie qie ni... thks for all the thinng u have done 4 me.

seasons of love

2006-02-14T17:52:00.000+08:00

Happy valentines! its valentines day today... see lots of couple in shoppin mall. Hahs. Well well... received my result few dayys ago.. got 17 pts for my R4. so average.. kns. Wasnt content with the result.. but was relieve tat i did fairly well. AFter considerin for days... i make my mind to continue my poly studies.
Today... went to cwp with her... bought cd and some other stuff. den actually wanted to lan with fren.. but kinda late. So.... lan cancel off le. hahs. so sry about tat. Maybe some other day. Sigh.. was wonderin when will skool starts. Feel like huntin for a part time job. Haix.. but my worry is tat u will feel neglected... hope u wun mind if i really find a job. My savin is runnin dry soonn! damm. hahs.. pls donate some money. lols kiddin.

-cleared-

2006-01-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

Everythings was solved yst night... Realise alot of things which i have nv thought of it. hahs... actually nth serious. Worked in bata for around 10 days in the shoe fair, but wad irritates me is tat i have not receive my pay yet. That bata manager was like draggin the time. Wad de hell... it has already passed a week already. Is he really tat poor to pay away that few hundreds buck... Damm.
Today was a kinda tiring day. Went to suntec at 10am and end work at 5 plus. Had so much work to be done todays.... return home with a few cuts on my hands too. tmr will be my off day... dun have to work. =)
Well well, got to worrk on sunday... shall end my post here.

weekly post

2006-01-12T18:15:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. was sick on... oh i rmb, its on the sat afternoon. I realised my forehead was getting hot. Not only tat, i was feelin cold all over as well. So den...., i decided to stop work and go somewhere else for a rest. Obviously not straight home... there isnt any peace there. Not even an atom of it... lols.
Well, i recovered on mon... and didnt work either.. has not fully recovered. Went to international plaza to hand in my time sheet. Went with her to novena for lunch there. Browse around United sq to look for shoes. My shoes spoilt already, no shoes for work. hahs. After walkin for some times... it seem tat this place is not a plce to buy shoes.. cos, there is hardly any shop selling shoes.
Tues...., it was a public holiday. But work still continue, gd thing is tat my pay per hr is doubled. Bad thing is- i cant go out. =/ .. As usual the next day, went to ps carrefour for work. after ps, went to suntec carrefour. for work purpose.
weds... same as wad happen on tues.
Thurs... and its today. alot of things happen.... it didnt happen today, but it happen yst. I reached home at around 5 or 6 plus...........................................................
i has been workin everyday....... someone felt left out................. i didnt noe wad to do....
the only way is to quit this job............... but i cant... and i dun wan.....

i cant continue anymore.. sighh... shall end here.

i am really sry about this.... though u may not see this... but i feel tat i dun really understand u too well.

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2005-12-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

=] starting with a smile. had already started working, somewhere in semb- Sp.
Started workin durin the late dec. its a part tine job. Gd thing about this job is tat it is near to my hse. Dun have to wake up so earrly for morning shift. Well... the pay is kinda low. but nvm... at least i dun have to count the transport fee. The workin environment was quite relax. Hahs.

after this job, i would be doing another better part time job. Drink packer. First 4 hrs will be 4.5bucks hourly, and 6.75 bucks/hr for the next 44 hrs onwards. 2005 is near. lols. time pass really fast. but this 2004 was the longest year. why.? It was because the time for slping was greatly reduced. almost everyday, i had smthg awaitin for me to get it done.

Life for me was great. I really enjoy this holiday. hahs. a holdiday which most ppl have the chance to enjoy only once in their lifetime. Lols.

Bcos of u, i learnt to treasure.

End: Second stage of edcation

2005-11-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

Yay... after few months to hard work, its time to free ourselves. O level has ended. have been lookin for job since this week... but, it seem the job are hard to find. Sigh.. have been stayin at home playin games. Soon thick glasses is inevitable.
hahs. So much time.. but insufficient money to spend with the plentiful time. Sigh.

Well, by next week shall come out with de chalet proposal. I think 4e2 are lookin forward for it, i guess? Nov and dec may not be possible for the chalet, cos i doubt there is any vacancy. Or we just have a bbq night and bid gudbye to our dear friends.

I am desperately looking for a job, i dun wanna rot at home. Anyway, i suppose promoter job sucks. Even job for distributin leaflets.. =X

Alas.

2005-10-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

"IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN, YOU PLAN TO FAIL."

oh..

2005-10-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

Fire!.. there was a broke out of fire under my unit yst. Wah lao... the cloud of smoke was so damn concentrated, that i got no choice but to leave the house. It was about 8 storey away frm my unit. At first.. i didnt realise it until my bro told me. Lols.. was busy doin my hwmk. 3 explosion was heard. Maybe there is a gas leakage. I guess no one was in the house.
Hahs.. days in css is gettin short.. sighs.

End of Prelims

2005-09-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

Long and hard journey ahead.. Prelims had just ended, i have already know how badly i did. Argh, kns. Soon it'll will be olevel pract. Sound scaryy.. =X
Pray hard over the weekend.. we'll be havin back our result on wed. Lols. Well, shall stop here and slp liaos...

the countdown..

2005-08-28T09:55:00.000+08:00

Well, i hope everything is fine. Prelim is just 2 weeks away frm now.. which means i only have an average of 2 days to study for a subject. Its quite impossible in fact... but all i can do now is to eat. slp. and study. Hahs.. of course a 30 min break on my computer.
Last 2 weeks have been revising hard on my Ad maths. Its so tedious.. moreover, with some of my careless mistakes.. making everything worst. No school for next week except for practical exam. Hahas.. i think i still got to come back to clear some of my doubts with the teacher. This national examination seem motivating.. every one in e2 has worked even harder den ever.. Amazingly awesome!
i think i shall stop here. everyone out there, study hard! Gan-ba-tte.

sometimes it's so tantalizing

one step nearer

2005-08-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

Well, now i am one small step nearer to my goal.. WAhahas., shldnt slack anyway. there's still a long way to go. I can sell all my chinese stuff, loads of dem- full volume of sec1-4 txtbk and guidebook. These are limited stuf kaes, cant buy it anywhere now.. I think i'll be giving away for free. FREE!

Okay, its time for studies.. Bye cya.

2005-08-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

THE END

Ye xu wo fang qi ni na tian, wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian

wakaka i am back

2005-02-05T15:21:00.000+08:00

Today... went 2 look thru moi handbook.... it was quite empty.. no hmwk..no test. Hahhas wait long long... Actuallly i did not write it down, in fact all was in my mind liaos.. The teacher all bian tai sia.. gif sho much hmwk.. especially the emths... wah nid to do 100+ problem frm de ten years series sia........................
Well.. now i am usin the p4 comp again.. wakakka.. all my music, picture and blah blah in this comp. Hehehs i went to create a account secretly.. den went to remove the pass frm the admin. Hhhahahs... stupid admin.
Anyway.. i have completed moi a maths, physic mind map, and ..theres still alot... and a maths is eatin up my brain cells.!! i took half an hour to complete ONE question.. ridiculous.
Sunday go watch movie liaos la.. no tym didnt step into the threate liaos. HEhes.. den ask some of moi fren to go 2. watch flight of de phoenix or I do i do, or dun noe la.. Aiya cannot la. i do i do i think is on the 7 of feb showin.. Today chiong finish all moi hwmk first den tmr and new year can play til siao lor.. anyway heng ar no test liao. HEHehs

Don't fall in love with somebody who dosn't love you back (it's not cool). == perharps?

holiday mode deactivated- failed..

2005-01-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

Geez.. still unable to quarantine myself frm the comp lei.. wah lao.. addicted sia.. unless some1 go and lock the door and hide the key.. Den i will have no choice. This way i will den guai guai sit down and do homework.
Jia luk liao.. 4 more months to mt paper. O level de!!! dun play play liaos.. I wanna score for gud grades den i got one sub lesser to concentrate on liaos.

first week

2005-01-09T19:44:00.000+08:00

First week of skool past so quickly. everyday there seem to so busy. new dates of examination, tests, pop quizzes. Hahas... another important task awaitin for me to accomplish next monday. Collect class key, class diary and attendance book. hahas. so excitin rite. MY FOOT. Kanna sabo by classmate sia. actually my fren they all wanted to sabo other ppl de.. in de end. wad happen? Backfire sia. so bad!! Tis year abit special sia. chairman got badge de. but the task fer chairman this year not easi sia.. different frm last year.. wah piang...

first day of skool

2005-01-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

today unlike the usual skool day. they wasnt any lesson goin on. but there were talks goin on in the hall and class. Even games took part in the class.

Yawnnzzzz, woke up at 615am. the morning was so cold. Can shiver in the toilet. reach skool @ 0705 ba, saw alot of sec 1 in the foyer, was so packed. and skool started jus like this. blah blah blah. and ring!!!! skool dismiss. went fer ltc meetin... and den... nth more.

bbotherin some1 is a nuisance.. if i had caused some 2 ya, so sorry..

zoom..!! time pass realli fast

2005-01-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0. and its 2005.. wah kao.. why so fast. This year o level liaos. abit nervous sia. tink tink....
last year.. was still like... yesterdae... and year had passed.
last year....
04, lots of thing did came in and happened. (of course la, 3655 days kae). did learn plenty of things. and did some mistakes too. However this year, i had got the lousiest result of the 3 years studyin' in sec skool.. Maybe cus of slackin ba.
Woops.. forgotten wad to post liaos.. to be continue...

yesterdae,today, tmr...?

2005-01-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

went to bugis today. met jie, adek,& bel. reach there about 5+ ba. the mrt wasnt as pack as i xpected. Moi hiar was kinda long liaos. and skool is reopenin soon. so went there to cut moi hair lors. This time was abot different.. cus it was i decided to have a shorter hairstyle. However if no stylin product is used on moi hair.. it will not stand. cut+shamp - 28 bucks.
After haircut they went to take neoprints. and u noe smth? did xpect myself to go take neoprint to. lols. dun noe why i go join in the fun to takin neoprints.hahas after tat, went to k-pool book table first.but we are 10ppl behind the bookin list. wah.. it was like so long lor. @bout 11+ met bryan and his company. wah... so mani ppl sia.. all the soccer company and the soocer conpany's frends. lols tat alot. den abit hhungry. went to bk grab a bite first. so some decided to go walk walk. after tat went to lucky plaza find bryan they all. they also playin pool. we went there play for 1hr+ den close table go settle bill. wakakaka.. finally time fer home swt home liaos.. so tired.cus last nite slo at 5am. woke up at 9am. zzzz

all i noe was tat i wasnt gd enuff.

borin dae

2004-12-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

sigh..woke up at 10+ today so damm tired.. Jus hate life. Hope 2 slp fer longer while. But my mum keep wakin me!!Argh!!
Hate it! did some homework at home.. den go online.. den chat, play game... den sigh so bored!!!!!Argh.. restless!!! Cmon... holidae gonna end soon..i got to focus.. i nid some blardy motvation to finish my o level. Jus one year!! only one year.. but some mani thing is distractin me.. i am not discipline enuff to control myself. I cant do badly fer o level. this is smth serious kae... got to blame myself.

Jus cant get u off my mind... u carve it so deep... why.... sigh... i am feelin terrible...

christmas eve.

2004-12-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

24th/04....
Stepped out of moi hse at bout 6 to meet wee hong at yishun mrt station. He was meetin his fren there too. Hahs. We t ook train 2 somerset. After tat wee hong and his fren went to take neoprint with his fren. we den decided to play pool. went 2 k pool to play fer 2 hrs. It was around 11+ and bel decided to come to somerset to meet us.
25th/04
By this time it shld be christmas. i guess wendy and her hubby was here few minutes b4 christmas. hahhas.. we bought some sprayin thingy to spray @ ppl.. hahas!!! every one around the street will doin the same thing.... and this goes on till 1.11am. we decided to wait fer the last train.. however the last train had left. no choice.. got to take night rider to yishun. On the bus i was thinkin how to walk home frm to yishun to semb. Lolz. den mum called me and sayin dad will fetch me home. hahas wee hong they all shun bian

hougang safra.

2004-12-24T13:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae went to moi ah mah hse for grandfather death anniversary. Erm,, think its about 3-4 years le ba.. Went to play soccer wif my cousin. Lol.. still rmb on wed, playin soccer.. we were caught again by the.. lols regular customer :x
Then moi uncle brought us to hougang safara to play pool, the rate there was 9 bucks per hr. Woah.. quite ex..and my little cousin was disturbin us while playin. Hahs the fuuny part tat he was too small to play and he keep insistin to play. After no choice one of my cousin brought him to the arcade. Soon after tat we also went to the arcade.. Play till 10+ went to yio chu kang eat some prata.. zzz was kinda tired after tat.. Den my uncle still got to send us home, and i reach home at bout 12+. However my uncle still had to drive home frm my hse.. Frm semb to hougang was realli realli far.. i bet he is gettin tired too.

sumtimes i would wonder if u find me irritatin...?

holidaes endin soon

2004-12-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

Arggh i am feelin so slpy all day.. jus came back frm msia on monday. hahs, tuesday afternoon went to library to complete some of the holiday assignments. Unlike usual the 3rd level was very noisy. Can actually hear all sort of noise- ringtones, little kids shoutin, and adult tokin loudly as if they re in their own hse. lols. and dun see the librarian comin out very often oredi...
Anyway, did enjoy myself durin the holiday trip to msia... The weather there was kinda cold. Erm about 17 degree celcius. Quite foggy also.. Almost lost my way in the carpark, cus can hardly see the surroundin'. The fun part is the theme park, quite excitin. Went to the ride on space shot or whether name.. it will actually bring u high up above ground- bout 15 storey high.
after tat it will drop frm there. Can have the feelin of jumpin down frm 15storey high buildin. Lol, sucide? This ride was the most excitin part comparin to the others.

A relationship’s paths cannot be copied with a pen

And there isn’t any rules to implore for help

Leavin....

2004-12-16T08:02:00.000+08:00

Aiya... i will be leavin fer malaysia tmr... haven been bloggin these few daes. Holiday assignment also not completed.. animation work still veri slow. -.- Feel like havin a rest. By the way today i am goin to nyp again liaos. Cannot use msn... cannot play games.. cannot. alot of things. Cus nid to work on project marr.

start crackin..

2004-12-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yesh... i started on moi homework liaos, my project. Startin to learn the basic of 3ds max. Wohooo! Tat the feelin i am searchin for. Today woke up at 12.. as usual. My internal clock was delayed since holiday started. Hhaha anyway.. it dosent matter, start hw after breakfast.. till bout 3 plus. was like lyin on the sofa... gosh!! i fell alslp. Lols... Becomin more like pig liaos... slpt fer about 3 hrs.
Den went online at bout 8+. Started readin on tutorials about 3d max. wahahaha. No more games.. maybe til christmas eve.. Bcus, by tat time we may have completed our animation project. gogogo team.. stop all the slackin.

loobbyyy lyksss uuuu... bbbuutt faaateess nooottt
thhheeerree

sentosa camp..

2004-12-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

Yawnns.. was quite tired after reachin home. B4 tat we went to watch movie, and the cinema in sp was so empty. There were only my frens there lorrs. hhhahs so great. can sit anywhere u wan. The show was quite meanin ful afterall. it tell sumthing bout frenship and the meanin of livin.. in another word we shld go fer wad we want.
A camp of 2 day one night.. hahas my role in this camp is not a camper. I am a camera person. Erm.. this camp was quite relax fer the campers. it doesnt look as tough as other camp. In fact it is the most relax camp i have ever seen. However.. the last day i did involve in the camp, and tats the morning PT. we jogged from siloso beach to the other almost end of the another beach. It was a slow job, and we are suppose to finish 100 push up on the way. Bcus they were late fer 10 mins.
Today woke up at 1pm.. it was like wah slpt fer so long...

tirin day...

2004-11-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

Today went to gym at bout 1 pm. Long time didnt train liaos... was abit wear out after this.. Went there fer bout 1 hrs plus ba. I went there with bryan. Den zichao and his bro came too.
We took train back to semb to buy sumthing.
though we were tired, we acompany wendy and bel to the ps there fer some window shoppin lors.. was a bit hungry and went to food court to grab a bite.

i cant guess wad happenin...

scary? hehehs

2004-11-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

Today went to sp to catch a movie with a grp of frens. Erm quite a big grp, i guess so. hahs. We watched shutter at bout 3.15pm.

It was not as scary as i thought, hahas and i got two directors in beside me..Hahas they actually noe wad happen next.Woah. And jie sat beside me... she scream so much.. hahhs makin the atmosphere even better. Lols. It was quite noisy at the back. However i did enjoy the show.

This morning wasnt that great. Arggh, i hate ppl confiscatin my things. HATE IT... my house has become a chantin room. I was goin crazi, thhough i had been years... this realli sux. Sighh...

Either letting go or goin fer it

today?

2004-11-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

Finally i started my homework... my handwrtin dun look gud since the day i last hold the pen. lols... it is gettin untidy. today went to causeway to complete some of the holiday assignment. However some of my fren went to watch incredibles. So left me and wee hong in the library, so far my concentration is okay sia. I sat there for 2 hrs. after tat feelin abit hungry so we went to grab a bite. B4 tat wee was slpin.. hahhas... time pass really fast. I finish till 70 percent of my chinese hw.. hehhes.

the more u wanna it to be forgotten, the stronger the bond would increase...

i dun noe...

2004-11-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

i dun noe if this is for real. dammit. argg!!! goin ccrazzi.... i can daze in blank fer blady hrs.. i got lots of things roamin around my mind. no wonder i got a few more strands of white hair. Sigh stressful. gettin old liaos.
Wo shi peng dan... i need a rest..i gettin tired... i cant breathe.. whu sap all my strength away... i could feel it from far...

i am back!! yeeha.OBS was fun

2004-11-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

Well, at last i am back to the civilsation world again. Yesh. Obs... was tough but it was dam fun afterall. I have great times with my camp mates. So i shall start from day... 1 wait!! happy readin :]

Day1....
First day was the slackiest day ever. We packed our store items, collected food of 5 days. We also introduce ourselves. Duh...By the tym we finsh, it was in the noon. We went for kayakin, well it was my first time learning how 2.. It was kinda hard on the first day. i got hard time allowin my kayat to move straight. Time pass really fast. It was about evening, instructor taught us how to pitch a tent. After tat was cookin. All this was realli fun.. Becus u cant realli get to do this at home. After our lunch we went to have a bath. The water was cold.....Follow by a debrief. we went back to our tent and slp.. It was sweet slp as no insect has invaded our tent. however one of my teamate snore..hahah and tats was joey. But it wasnt very loud anyway... so i manage to enter my dream land.oh ya b4 tat we listen to some of the of the ghost stories from our members too.

Day2
Sec day, we moved most of our daily needs to another bag pack they gave us. It was big... very very big.. we brought 5 days food along and 2 huge water bottles. And it was kinda heavy.. i bet it was more than 1/3 of my weight. So sec day was the first hikin trip. We move from camp site 2 which was where we landed on the first day to camp site 1. Camp site 1 was perfect.. The facilities was almost twice better than the previous camp site. The toilet, the food and mani more...We walked fer bout 30mins to another camp site. It was kinda far... there will lot more campers stayin there too. But they are residential campers, and we are not. We are groups of campers movin around the island. wakaka.. OOps after that i forgotten what we did....shall skip to day3 den.
Day 3....
Day three.. was some high rope elements activities, i guess so. It was hot in the morning as well as the noon.. We habe bout 2- 3 hrs on it. Oh ya. we got 15 members in our group. A group is also known as a watch. We finsh the activities in de afternoon and haf our lunch.. our last meal before we move on to another site. We pack our bag pack and set off. We travel without any help. We can only have the map as a guide to our route.. and obviously with compass 2. On the way... some members has to count the number of step we had walked so we can estimate how far we have travelled.In another word it is called pacing and in pacing, 65-70 steps is about 100m. Third day hikn trip was tough.. we had to cut thru forest, reach the peak of the hill. We need to reach a few check point. One of it was a tombstone. In the forest, there alot of insect, thistle and mosquitoes. After all the endurances we reach our destination. A quarry site, a place surrounded by trees and water. Worst still no toilet. -_- Night was soon.. we pitch our tent and went to cook. There was no light and we got to use torch light to cook.It was quite fun afterall. hehs. After dinner, some ppl went to wash our utesils usin seawater and sands... After tat me and moi frends play stones. We aint childish kay. We decided to see who could let the stone jump on the surface of the water more numbers of tym. However day3 was not yet to be over yet. We still got to smash our metal can into a small flat piece of metal and burn it to ensure that it was dry. And u noe wad!! we saw firefly, only one... i manage to caught it in my palm. Woah it was magical... nice... it butt could give off lights. The firefly flew off after tat.. B4 we slp, there was a briefing on wad we got to bring onto our kayak. So day 3 was quite a long day
Day 4....
sec last day.. we woke up at 5.15... my internal clock did work well, i manage to wake up early every morning. we unpitch our tent immediately we woke up and pack our bag. day 4 was the biggest challenge. We got to kayak around p.u which was bout 20km to our campsite 2 which we settle down in day 1. We started kayakin at bout 8.am. i thought today was goin to be a bad day cus i have not realli learn noe to kayak.. Luckily on that day itself i learn it... wow i could go realli go fast.. hahahs the navigator was fast too... leavin some of the ppl behind.we go realli far.. i brought lotsa food inside my life vest pocket. Orange, fruit bar, biscuts and lot more.hhahas was quite full. We reach frog island in the afternoon.. There was lot of seashell and corals.. i collected some but in the end i lost it. So sad... After our lunch at frog island we continue our journey. Wow this time round endurance comes in.. we got to use most of our strenght kayakin.. sometime against the strong current... and sumtime ppl crash onto u.. hahaha was realli fun. Reachin the destination was the greatest success, cuss i thought i was not able to kayak properly.. after reachin we still got to carry the kayak back to shore for a wash.. and it was like immediately. I could feel tat my backbone is goin to break any moment... wads more... the leader keep shoutin for us to move faster.. i feel like givin a punch onto their idiotic faces. i almost fall into the big drain sia.. the path was like so small lorr. luckily i got gongfu arr.. hahah kddin. Anyway we manage to wash all our item and put back into the store.. was quite tedious. I ate away all the leftover food as i was so dam hungry. Even a flat squash bun look nice to me. Almost the last atom of my strength was use away...by then it was night time.. was a bit suay.. it was raining, and our tent was like floodin and we cant sleep lor. So we got to move under shelter and slp. The last night was very cold, but i still had a nice sleep.zzz...zzz..
Day 5
It was the last day... yeah. It was time fer breakin camp..our instructor checked our store items
and alot of item were missin. NO CHoICE... either we look for it or we pay fer it. so we went lookin for lot of things. Hehehes we manage to find and trade back every single thing lost. So we didnt have to pay for anythings. all thanx to the huntins from our members. thanks guys. Without them, i wun be able to buy OBS tee shirt liaos.hehs. i spent 31 bucks on 2 shirts... Soon the mixture of sad and happy atmosphere came in.. we were happy cus we can go home, sad cus we miss our frends and this beautiful island. Wad didt left us was memories.. yea, memories...

After this camp i learnt lot of new skills..and thks fer readin. hahahas take care COOK members. U ppl rawk!!!!!!!! Muahhaha.
Lame guy sign off.

though i was awae... i did nt forget bout u any
moment... and i dunoe why..

5 days and 4 nites.

2004-11-16T05:59:00.000+08:00

sob... wun be able to use my comp, hp, and mani more things le.. will be away fer 4 days..
HAizz i missin my gaming and chattin. tsk..
Haahhah aniway obs gonna be fun.. geez buais guys... tag in my little blog if anyone of ya miss me.. haha jokin nia. :p

aiya...

2004-11-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

It has been loong since i last bloggin'. Nth much realli happen... everyday was quite peaceful. Indeed, peaceful, yar.
Two more day to obs camp, another words, i gonna be quarantee from all my "precious". My pc, hp and many more. to be continue

holy....

2004-11-07T18:22:00.000+08:00

Wah suay arr!!! My final fantsay 9 de saved file lost sia. All thanks to my stupid memory card... i think it was overloaded with all my saved games. I played for around 26 hrs!! and it is gone jus like this.. sobx.. Waste of my time~

Last day..

2004-11-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

Yesh.. today is the last day of skool for us!! The last week for the sec 3s. But there are still other days which i will need to attend skool. Yawn feelin tired. Alamak, there are still sho mani holiday homework fer me. This few days i have been in a relax mood.
I am afraid tat i will start to slack if i dun start workin on it soon. Gonna plan my holiday time table soon. Haiz...life is so unfair so tyms.. Aiya i think i better not assume personal responsibilty for others unnecessary. i wun help much either-- helpless man-- Sighs.

u broke it into pieces... now i got to mend it back piece by piece. But i will
learn to grow stronger one day-- i will

a day when i am...

2004-11-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

Everyday seem so meaningless, even thought next year is gonna be an important year for me. H..a...i...x my world seem to become colourless--- colour faded--- without my reliazation.
Where am i... did i lost myself? How come i dont get exicted over alot of things? I had lost interest to alot of things happening around me. Wad is that feelin...? :X

wad a feast..

2004-10-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

wah.. this sat, i asked 5 of my frens out fer dinner. i asked them to seoul garden... at tat time, it was oacked with lots of ppl. But we waited only fer short while till our turn to get in. Actually the sum of all 4 ppl was only $70++ cos i had got 2 $10 off voucher. But the another one was only valid on the other month. So we got to pay $90 for it.
Wah my fren got to pay more.. i made a mistake fer not readin the voucher properly b4 asking them out. It was like so ppaiseh, feel abit guilty also. Luckily i brought extra cash.. otherwise we got to wash the plate over there b4 we got go.. Hahhas.

`meet the parent session`

2004-10-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

Arggh... my result is falling!! Yar, it is falling. It is from bad to worst! Have not met their expectation? They must be disappointed, sigh.
Today my mum was required to come to see Ms ku. It was becus, i did not did well in my EOY. Wad the... i feel so lousy, at times i would suspectin my abilities. Am i gettin more and more stupid? Si..g..h... i jus cant control things thats is happening around me. Sob sob.... :'(
This cant be true!! i have been focusing during the last few weeks b4 the exams. Isnt is enuff? Did i forget how to concentrate without knowing? Or am i lyin to myself?

since it cant happen in this realistic world, i shall let it be a beautiful
dreams foreva...

sundae.

2004-10-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

todae seem as usual, nothing much really happen. Went to moi ah mah hse. Came back home bout 2+ After tat my Gf decided to ask me out for movie. Oh ya, forgeet to intro to u my gf. The are my good frend(G.f) Lolx. Not funny isnt it? Den dun laugh. Diaoxx -_-'" REach home at bout 10, den went to play final fantasy 9 at my ps. Wah i played til 3.15am in the morning, I was so tired this morning....
Today kanna naggin by my mum, a professional in it after years of performance in our hse. Hope she could jus shut her mouth tight. I want PEACE!!! Not piss .

flung...

2004-10-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

aww.. i failed 2 sub, my english and A mths fail!!!
I am feelin so usless, i trifle die than sufferin in this torturin world.
StrEssses and stress and stress!!! I am so worried bout my o level.
Top 25%? NO chance liao la. I gettin lousier.
Sighss, 2004 the lousiest year!!!!!!!!!!
ArGggHHHHH!!!

~Every Sadd and hapYY moments, U seEmm tto Be Dde fIrsT pERrSon TTo appEaarr iM mAhh thougHTt~

results!!!!

2004-10-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

Arr... result... woah. Tats was scary indeed. Sigh, i only got c5 for my physic, and A2 for my chinese. Sianx -_-, both our teacher told us tat it was set as in the standard of olevel.

-_-

2004-10-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

sighss.. todae dun nid to study. Cant get used to it sia, cuz like nothing to do. Gosh. todae i wake up at 10+, but yesterdae i slept at 6+. Wah i miss dinner also, my mum did woke me up, but i was so deep in my sleep...

arr.. choosin to forget some 1 is hard

tired

2004-10-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

yesterdae i hardly slept for 2 hrs. got to preapare 9 chapter of a maths which i habent started util yesterdae. Wah qiong sia 9 chapter at one go. I drank two cup of coffee. Quite effective. I studied from 5pm to 4.30 am. Wah first time i studied for so dam long. Sighs, the exam very very veryy.... tough. So easy sia.... easy to fAilLL, wah lao . Teacher sick sia, set until so high.

i am slowly gettin over with it

awww.

2004-10-07T16:48:00.000+08:00

i lost myself..... no one could find me back again. Dang...

life sux..

Mt exam.

2004-10-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

Yawnz... Yesterday night couldnt slp well. Maybe i was a bit nervous bout today exam marr. DAng! i learned 600 words from the handbook, in the end it only came out 5 simple words! -_-'"
The teacherr shuldd set more hanyu pinyin marr. so can score more from tat section. Anyway, it is oreadi over liao marr. Sooo.. no turning back. Look front, tmr english. One of the weakest subject. Sighs, especially compre, the text is so damn dry, its harrd to understand 50% of the content. Maybe shuldd scoree from compo, so both paper add 2gatha can balancce. Lol.

No matterr wadd u sayy i will still caree ferr ya...Why? sighs.

Jux cant stop thinkin

Life...

2004-09-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

Life... dun noe how define. Term 3 was not doin well.. sad :(
Whatever happen last term shall be a nightmare. Stained my mind, it was hard gettin on after the bad dream.. Alot of things seem to happen, but i seem not to bother. In the end, Sighs.
So.. whatever happen last term, shall put it behind me, i got to buck or else it come hauntin after me again. SCARY?? ISNT IT? Bygones.. The past should not live, it shall be a memory or a lesson. Its time fer me to realise this. Oh ya i got a new slogan, u wanna noe? Hehs >> Others affair i am not interested! Why..? not sure for the time being yet. Lemme sort it out durin this few daes ba.
Jux one more week it wil be EOY examination liao, nid to chiong le. 1,2,3 chiong arr. Lol siao kao. Realise this few weeks has been feelin irritated easily. So unexpected "words" has been hanging around my tongue. Maybe after so times i will get over with it ba. I have long lost myself, cant find it again. Sometime its not bad learning to forget things.. If one day there is a brainwashing machine, i wil be the first to try it out. HAhs can forget alot to sad things marr. Not bad... hmm..

LeArn tO foRgEt HEr...

memorial chapter...

2004-09-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

Finally another chapter of my life ended.. It was filled with joy and pain. Unfortunately it has ended with sadness. It seem like a sweet dream that has ended so quickly. Sighx.
29/8, 7.30pm.... a day i would remember for my lifetime. The day which my fragile heart is broken into million of pieces. Argh... i hurts alot, warm tears nearly flow out, however i did manage to stop it. I have never met a crush that gave me such a big impact that sadden me so much. So much that i cant cope with anything in front of me. The darkness behind me is catching up, while the pale ray of light is leaving so far. The gap widen each days....
Everydays seem to be so hard to pass by... i just couldnt stop myself from thinkin of her. Her vivid images seem to appear every moment. Feelin weaker each day, she once entered my world but she left.. Every interesting lesson has slowly evolved into somnolent lessons. CAnt focus like i used to...
tO be cOntiNue.....
Feeling so hurt

2004-08-30T17:19:00.000+08:00

An Jing/ Silence

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleepy cello

An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that even during the break up, I still have to please you?

Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

storm over....

2004-08-28T15:35:00.000+08:00

Not gonna think much about it anymore, need to focus on exam liao. Final year comin soon le, got to choing liao. Storm in the front team! i got to finish planning my timetable b4 next week ba. So i can have enough time to finish my revision b4 examination start.
B4 tat got to settle all my hw first, den cca stuff put aside first la, tat one can wait de. Need to cut down time on my pc also. So addicted to game recently, maybe games can help me to destress. It help me to forgets alot of troubles, but at only for a moment...
Aniwae, set target first lor den start studyin liao le.. Buaiz

Painful piEcE oF MiND

2004-08-23T17:57:00.000+08:00

Argh.. I am dropping back into the painful world again.Maybe?
I thought I have found someone who could ease my pain. But no... I was wrong. I was a big fool, the world biggest fool ever.
Ever since this torturous pain befall on me, i have been so distracted. Even the souls around me noticed that. However i did not realise it till sometimes later. I was clear that this was nobody fault.The faults lies only on the fate. Fate brought u to me, but u seem to be a statue that show no respond. Sigh....why is the world so unfair.i am so damn clear that force love shall not exist in my theory . U cant force some1 to like u. Up0n facin the facts, i must noe tat she got no feelings for me. Perhaps she is too good for me or she needs more time. I had always been thinking positively, but its impossible to continue to do this all the time. Cos i wiill only be lying to myself. But why, sometimes she gives the type of feeling which seem so special, that no one could even achieve it.Everytime I have got so many unanswered questions in my head.it seem like it could burst anytime. But one sentence for this hardship, she is worth waiting, therefore I shall continue to wait...

.::WaItInG::.

2004-08-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

.::WaItInG::.

DrOwNinG

2004-08-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
girl, you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
'Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely
In your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe

Everytime I breathe
(Every time I breathe again)
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
(Baby I can't help it)
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love

Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning
In your love
I keep drowning
In your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

hahah

2004-08-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

Finally i feel better the storm has gone away. This morning the sun seem brighter and the world look more colourfuk again. The air i breathe in become so sweet again. Haahha, yesh!!!!
Sometimes theres a lot thing perharp have to be decided by the fate. Alamak 9 .00 liao, i go study my A maths test for tmr le. Buaizzz...

is it gonna end....?

2004-08-17T18:03:00.000+08:00

Is history gonna repeat again...? Hope its is not gonna repeat, cos wad will happen to a shattered heart when it is hurt again. It will become ashes and flow into the sea, love shall not exist in it again. First shattered into million pieces, then to ashes and washed away by the big sea.. It near to impossible to find it back once its gone....
Today is another usual day.....reached home bout 6+. I have been feelin down for this few daes, i tryin my best to occupied my time wif study to make my mind busy.However it is hard to do that. Once in a while i will feel so down..
Alamak wad has happen to me..... i wan to go counselling le. Mentally weak liao, no motivation to do anything.
EvEryThIngS i Do On tHiS wOrLd iS fOr tHe sAke Of HeR(MotIvatIon? or ADDicTed)

i sux

2004-08-16T16:10:00.000+08:00

Sigh sigh and sigh...there no other word i could use to express my feelin. I such a failure, i had not success wad i suppose to do. Wad an idoit!! Moi is so damn useless, wad happening to me. I couldnt find my old self again. I was lost far, far away, tat i dun even noe where the heck i am. todae is the lousiest day i ever had, I juz couldnt make myself concentrate. I cannot afford to be lost again.. arrgh i am devastated. The only place tat i can vent it out is here, but its to no avail, the feelin will come back again. Two words to describe me>>> I SUX!!!!
Lost in the darkness without any ray of light of get myself out of it. Why.....How i hope some one could lead me outof the darkness......stuck in there waitin for hopes. But i noe it is hopeless...

I am a loser!!!!

A nOrmaL daE....

2004-08-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

As usual i woke up at 9 this morning, normally i would wake up at around 8+ de. May be too wear out, so woke up a bit later than usual. Yesterday i went to woodland community centre(dun noe its real name). There were dabates goin on there, the debates were so interestin. Thought i may not be interested in English, but i realise tat as a audience the debate was interestin. I was ordered from a teacher to record down Mgs vs YTs sec, and my role was a spy. I did not wear in uniform cos they will noe i frm css. Haha spy? wan to noe more
Nxt week will be css vs mgs, and u may think tat waD its challengin ba!! So i was ordered to record down how Mgs gals speak. They were great, speak very well and confidently.Indeed they are debaters. After bout one hour of debating, Mgs won the debate, nxt at around 4 its was our skool turn to go up the battle field. After 1 hour of recordin my legs were numb and the threate was so freezing cold.However i still got to continue recordin for the next hr. The skool css will be competing was Yishun sec.(Not yishun town) Our debaters were rather nervous except for hafiz and firm speaker.After the debate our skool won !!! I was kinda nervous for them too. Haaha got into the atmosphere unknowningly...
Two hours of recordin ended, wah i was very hungry cos i did not have my lunch tat afternoon cos got to rush to woodland and spy mgs mah. Immediately me and edward went to Mc at causeway to makan lor... Reach home at bout 7, and my hp bo batt, went home first thing is to charge moi phone...
Haaha this entry should be about today happenin, but i tok bout things yesterdae lol, nvm rite.

stress

2004-08-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

So stress....infinite homework and things to do... Yesterdae slpt at 3.49am, wah my eyelids were so heavy when i woke up at 6am.But still got to pull myself away from the wearinesss.
Chemistry lesson was fun todae, cos there is practical in the lab lol. We were playin around wif the experiment like frankenstein.haha

finally

2004-08-10T13:09:00.000+08:00

FinallyS, there should be more than two finally in this post, Firstly is finally i am back in Sg again. After 3 daes and two nights i reach sg again.. My homeland, actually should be 3deas and 3night bcos b4 returning to my homeland there was a long jam and the woodlands check point.The jam was 10km long and it lasted for bout 3hours plus...No choice but to wait paitiencely.Sighz i decided not to tok bout the trip at msia.

Secondly, holiday is gooin to end soon le. Haiz sian had to bring my hw to msia and do, its like so.... didnt wanted to go there but was forced to go. Its not even a long holiday yet they went for some dam long.

Sighz again...my mind is full of doubts..Arggh moi is goin crazy, thought i didnt show it in my expression.But silently its like so chaotic and blurr.....

A silenceness chaos and doubts

trip to msia

2004-08-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

Goin to msia tmr.. i goin there reluctantly. Bcos i am being force to go there, wad a stupid holiday trip to Gentin.If i could enter the Casino, the trip is goin to be exciting.Arcade there are so sux.Dun realli like the games there, no excitment at all.Not even the theme park, its gonna to have long qs at any stations.
Anyway i will be goin there for 3 days 2 nights.Wah lao so long.... still have to bring my holidae hw there to finsh so by tues day i will be able to relax.

confuse leh

2004-08-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

Sighz sighz sighz....how i wish i could read a person mind.If i could ever do tat, everything which happpen around me is gonna be close to perfect. But. its impossible..duh.
Sometimes its hard to guess wad a person is thinkin when u said something to him/her.When u are so concern bout his/her feelin u will started to imagine things, in fact ur imagination will run wild.Our imagination is so wide that no one could measures, it like infinite.... Therefore most of our conclusion we made contain negative and positive thoughts.However for me, most of the time my thoughts are negative...i always have the intuition tat something is gonna be wrong. In the end its all wrong, and end up misinderstandin the whole sitution.
If there a day i could not make my brain stop functioning, it will be wonderful... juz for temporary moment.
Dreams are another great thing in life, if i ever could weave a dream for myself and get into the moment forever.... it shall be a wonder land where every thing is not realistic. In the realistic world its so suffering. end the sufferin and get into the dream world for eternity.....

eNd tHe sufFerIng aNd enter the fantasy....

loNg dAes

2004-08-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today is a long day.... have not touch html for a long time ever since last few months. Sigh... got to update cosmix cafe webpage. Sometimes error make me busy for quite a few hours.
Woke up at bout 11+ in the morning and went out for breakfast. After tat i went to the library to do my homework.spent bout three hours there and manage to finsh most of my work.
It started to rain at 6.30 plus. Raining cats and dogs made ppl running every where to take cover.lol
At 7 plus when to have dinner and went back wif my homework. After completing i went to update oour school cosmix cafe website. The cosmix cafe is gonna be officially launched on the 5th of August. Either the P or the Vp will launch it.
After figurin out for the error in my code still cant fix the errors. Arggh, gettin a bt impatience le....Continue tmr ba, hope there will be too much hw to do so i can finsh up all my work.
Now its bout 12.41, gtg and slp... ZZzzz...

2004-07-31T11:43:00.000+08:00

LEANN RIMES LYRICS
"How Do I Live"

How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Good in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

poem for ya

2004-07-30T19:24:00.000+08:00

LOVE IS EVER ..... by John Mcleod...

Love is ever where the heart will find it

No matter how unlikely seems the place,

Love will wrap each moment warm around it And wear a gentle smile upon its face,

Love, itself, is without limitations

For it alone will find its place of rest,

Thus, finding Love, reject all imitations And smiling know how well your days are blessed.

i Am douBtfUl....wHy?

doubtFul

2004-07-30T18:37:00.000+08:00

Hah school life is fun... but some time is very torturin too. Loads of homeworks to finish.Not only academic work, cca also has some pendin stuff waitn to be completed....Sigh i started realise i have not learning news thing in my cca, coz there nothing new for me to learn.The cca doesnt has any expertise or trainer to teach us more advance skills.Lol end up teaching a group of slackers.Haiz some people also dun realli want to learn, i wonder wad they come to cca for wad.
Nvm aniway, this gonna be my last year in this school...But i will still miss the ppl in the skool.Hah i juz help someone to write a script for a farewell party.Hehz, only the closin part la.Though it not for mine cca, i feel it worth to help.lol Dun ask why.
;p

liFe

2004-07-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

Havent got this feelin ever since tat day...when i was hurt. Lol sound serious.Started to feel better after each daes, cos ....Isnt it a great task to have to care for someone who is special to u?
It was indeed a very wonderful job to me.Did fate assign me to acquire this task.Fate...
The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events.
Alot of thing u do may be for the sake of someone, without that encouragement or motivation.. Doing every single thing would be meaningless to u.What i conclude may not be right for u, but sometime the force is so strong to resist.

Real love is feeling like being a part of that person'slife almost isn't enough. It's more like a feeling thatyou would live in the same skin with them if you couldand share every thought, heart beat, and emotion as one

ChAnGe mY bLoG sKins?

2004-07-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

Lookin it for more than hundred times, feelin so sick and tired of it.Wad came out in my mind was to change the blogskin.But the skin is still goin to be ffx.Although i do not play ffx , however i like the graphic alot. The 3D graphic was so damn cool, and i found that they used "maya", a 3D application to create such a realistic character out of it.

Sigh but i still could not bear to part with this blog skin, sometimes its hard to make a desicions.

I have thought of a suggestion is to create a poll im my blog. then i will see the result.

Oh ya theres something i almost forgot, rmb yesterday i juz typed a long essay and when i press the button publish, it direct me to a page that was unexpected. The page was>>>"Page not found" When i saw this i was like arggh, feel like banging my head against the wall. Lols juz kiddin.

Sighz again tmr got chemistry test, though half prepare... still did have confident to do well.On thurs still have amaths test.Last but not least friday there will be a emaths test....No target for myself.How i wish someone who knows me well will set a goal for me. Even me dun understand myself that well.

hOpe tAt mY heArt wIlL noT sHattErEd aGaiN...

haiz

2004-07-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

dam u all miss my story

i type it for at least 15 mins and the its gone

Argg...Stupid blogger.

sorry guys. I will another time to type it agian.

Sianz go slp liao.zzzzzZZZ

i'Ll Be WaItInG fOr YoU...

Haiz

2004-07-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

Sighz... This few dae dun noe why so moody sia.Alway feelin frustrated ... feelin like ventin it out. But didnt want to, its gonna be enviromental unfriendly.
Alot of thing can be expexted, but just cant think of any solution of stop it or make it resolved.Since this is a public blog.Then i would not tok too much bout thinhgs tat u shud not noe : X
I have not got this feelin since few years ago, but it came up to me again. I so afraid that history will repeat itself. If its going to be, haiz i gonna bang my head on the wall and forgets every single thing in my life. And so be it, rather den sufferin in the hell man.
Still have not got wad i tryin to sae? Then maybe u find out one dae, student gets stress because homework, academic result and..etc.
How i wish i can have a 24hr listener. Erm... maybe shud go councilling liao. Kiddin :p Must alway have a happy endim in my blog.

ReAcHin FoR a LovE tHAt sEEm So FaR...

wEsTlIfE

2004-07-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

Shane:
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you really like me, baby

You don't ever notice when I’m turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are

Shane (Westlife):
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

Bryan (Westlife):
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
Every time I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no

You don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

Shane (Westlife):
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...

Mark:
You are my very first thought in the morning

Shane:
And my last at nightfall

Mark:
You are the love that came without warning

Mark & Shane:
I need you, I want you to know

Shane (Westlife):
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
Since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

Westlife:
The love song I`m sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more than adore you but since you never seem to see

Shane:
Since you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song

sec week of term 3

2004-07-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

Second week of term two has passed... So much homework,everi dae need to do and do and do ....So sian ah.Haiz no choice....Work hard for one and a plus year, hehe dun need to work so hard liao.
Every morning also wan to fall asleep, also dun noe why.But didnt sleep la, only in stand by mode lor. Teacher also dun noe, unless he/she ask me question den i die liao.Luckily my stand by mode only for a while, after tat i feel more enegertic le.Hehez dun noe wad is wrong wif me this few weeks.Haiz....
My cca sux man, start to hate it since this year.All tasks push to me to complete, den the rest still can shake leg.I also didnt compliant to teacher sia. Wish animation team can have a cca, and i definitely will go and join. So i wun have to waste my time and at the same time can do wad i am interested in.Even thought they gave me so much work...i still tried my best to complete it.Pending task is like forever, so much worries.
At least let me do something for the cca instead for such work.This type of task should be given the sec 2s.Dun want to sae so much alreadi, later got spy from my cca i'll be DEAD.

WaItInG iS tOrTuRiNg...

quite disappointin....

2004-07-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

Unexpected the members of other school has better production den us. However got some reason for losin, cos the software we used is 'blender' which is a freeware. So can understand the qualtiy of our animation. Secondly, we only used 1 month plus for planning and doin our project so time is limited that time. We were informed late bout the project. Haizz....
BUT, still got animania 2005, still got chance to win la, this year we gonna use Maya. but need to persuade our pricipal to buy the software which xos bout 4k plus. Quite expensive thought, but it can use forever. We now recruitin sec 2 liao.So the sec 2 is goin continue this animation thingy for us.
Yar hor, forgot to sae bout the result, one of our school team got into merit awards.
Which is my team lor, heng at least still got one team got win the competition ar. If not i goin to bang my head on the wall.Even though we did get the platinum award, we started the first time so its ok la.

some wound cant be treated using medicine

Prize Presentation

2004-07-02T17:28:00.000+08:00

Wah so nervous sia, tmr got prize presenntation. After a month plus hard work we got into the finalist. Which means we also got into the top ten. Hope the hard work can pay off.Durin the project daes was quite terrible cos almost all my team mate was busy and i was the only person facin the computer for decades. Lol kidding, its bout whole dae facin the monitor.From morning need to go school do, den at night continue the project at night.At least 10 hours facin the pc.No wonder my myopia get worse. Studyin too much not the reason for that, is facin the pc too long.
The project is quite fun thought its quiet tiring.but whenever i finished a task. I could self satified of it.It was quite cool creatin a 3D animation, cos nowaday, 3D movie are growin in the market sia. Like lord of the ring, shreck, apider man harry potter, and etc.So i think tat such skill is very important in the future.
Tmr presentation will be @ LASALLE-SIA College of the Arts 90, Goodman Road, Singapore 439053. Heh but i dun think any ppl can come.

Love is not blind, it sees more not less; But because it sees more it chooses to see less.

First dae in school

2004-06-28T19:03:00.000+08:00

Heh todae so scary sia. the school juz started they want to catch ppl wif long hair and dye hair. Phew luckily didnt kana. hehz Ms ku didnt catch me. Heng ar if they cut my hair dun noe wats gonna happen.
Ai ya only fringe long they also want to catch. i prefer my frindge to be long.Hahaz
dun tok bout this liao. Dun need to wax my hair on second dae cos i expected them to catch ppl one first dae of the term.My hair till my nose.But they didnt notice ;p
After school need to set up my "budget" animation centre. Dun really mind cos we need to work wif wad we have as a student.Mr purvan also starting to build the 70k 3d animation centre. But may take wuite a few months sia. So long.haiz. Sat need to go for animania 2004 prize presentation.A bit nervous bout it. Cos put in a month plus effort to do it. Very time consuming also. Want to see my production anot.Not bad ar.Still can see la.not as bad.hehez. If want to see tag a note at my taggy.. Leave ur email add there so can contact u.

FrAgIlE HeArT... sCaReD oF LoSiNg U...

schOOl rEoPen

2004-06-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

School reopen tmr. Wah sianz ar, not ready yet for school tmr.BUt lifestill have to continue. Hehehe, so go to school dun try to run away hor.
Schoolin quite fun wad. Can tok wif frend, ply listen and alot more. Must learn more thing b4 u leave the school for the society. Haz tok until like very cham like tat. Juz relax lor.Got test need to study only. Then do homework, as long as teacher tok u listen sure can pass one lar. If u wan to score, do more revision lor. Sure can score, but must spend at least alot of hours on ur studies la den can be top scorer lor
unless u are a god den can shakeleg dun need to study lor. Good luck for everi one.

one dae after

2004-06-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Wah one dae after the camp my body started to ache liao.But nvm la i think worth it.Cos this year may be the last year for us to camp liao.Cos next year o level liao.

This camp is a very unforgattable one.I will remember every sec of it.it will be my history liao.

Although some ppl may not be very obedient but many of the GL have learnt a lot from my observation. They had become the real leader.Hahaz three cheer and three cheer for Gl!!

Hope that they will lead the sec 2 next year!!!

J.B camp over..

2004-06-23T14:43:00.000+08:00

Three dae two nitez camp over liao..Very fun and unforgetable, me being the runner for the chief very honour. Hahahz need to thanks lok han and Andy to give me thus job.

On the first dae was not so tiring. The sec two were not very well behaved. Although it did gave an impact to the time line, after Mr Cheong did something the guys started to be better.THREE Cheers for Mr cheong...

Dae two was the most tiring dae. It all got to do wif rope element.Quite fun sia, But very tiring.Had to make sure the kids wore their sit propely b4 they go.Almost for whole dae need to work on that.At night was the campfire. The wood struture built was good but the wood did not burn cos of lousy quality.Lucky got Mr cheongto start the big fire.

Dae three.. nothing much to sae cos i wan to sleep liao.hahaaz bb.want to noe more ask me lor. ^_^ ZZZzzzZZzz..

Camp trial...

2004-06-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

zzz...got sick after the two dae 1 night camp. Maybe not enough water.But the camp was fun.Cos could experience the feelin of a student instructor.hahah song bo.. But too bad the camp did not go very sucessful. Some of the student instructor did not met the expectation of the camp therefore we ganna ....But we has agree to be much better on the actual day.

week two

2004-06-08T10:06:00.000+08:00

Yawn.. five daes in Nyp for some course.A simple and relax course. I learnt how to setup a server but couldnt afford to buy window 2000 professional. Bcos it cost about 1k to buy the software.
But quite fun to setup. I have tried doin it in Nyp. However sigh the course is too simple got very less thing to learnt lor.Haiz...Still need to do project one de... So troublesome sia
..Three more daes to go.
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ShE tHe FirsT anD tHe LasT...

rEcoNtrUction

2004-06-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Reconstruction complete....

Change my blog skin, cos i think the previous blog take too long to load for 56k dial up user and i counted the total size of my blog its about 1MB+. So to make it user friendly i make the size of my blog smaller.
This skin also took nicer than the previous one, the previous also got too many errors also lazy to go and edit.
Still need improvin on my blog, like quite plain.Haiz haven do my homework so slack cannot even take the effort to go and do it. Keep tellin my self tomorrow but everydae got tomorrw. -_-" How..?

second dae...

2004-06-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... second dae of my blog, not much people comin in. That so disappointing, haiz...
Althought complete my blog but still need of improvement as the template that i download is not very good as i thought i has a lot of codin error...Need to ix ownself, sianz -_-
But quite fun, can show off hahaha, and not as tedious if u understand the way it is setup. But i still dun understand why some people can write some much in thier blog.. wah liao so pro i cant even do that.. so have to write alot of crap.. haha u ppl readin my crap. Juz kidding ^_^
Animania 2004(3d animation competition) result also comin out at july. Very nervous dun noe can win anot although we got into the top 10 listing. CAnt wait for the result to come out. We submitted the prject last year and the judging took almost half a year to judge it.Visit thier site at www.creativebits.com.sg
And remember to leave ur comment at the tagboard pls and thankz you.

Success... ^_^Y

2004-06-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

My first blog is up. i took almost the 2 days to finsh it.. -_-" very tired sia but effort pay off. Holidae so short also cannot relAX ENOUGH FOR ME. i lost so much brain juice and engery during examination.Wah stress sia... but no choice. Half of my holiday is used up in school activites so very busy, still got holiday assignments.... First week free, except fridae need to go meeting, second week 5 dae course at nyp from 9am - 5pm. Third week got camp on trial run two days and one dae on rope element training for the camp one also. Last week got three day camp(real one!). Exciting sia can order the sec 2.Muhahaha!!! Still got homework also i think need one week to finish.